Hey friends of 0x00sec, the last time I was on this website was back in January. I was in a very, very dark place, and I decided to reach out and make a call-for-help post. If you seen it, it was really depressing… But, about 2 1/2 months have passed, and so many things have changed for me. Let’s go in order, shall we?
I have had a really bad past of self-harm that lasted for about 4 years. I officially gave it up back in August 2019, but over those 2 1/2 months that have gone by, I kept on self-loathing, and almost relapsed into the terrible habit. Luckily enough, I didn’t do it. I’m very thankful.
I found Jesus. I been going to church with my parents for about a year now, but back then, I was not involved into religion or God in general and had nothing to do with it. Then around early February this year, something kind of punched my in the face and told me to try it, that it won’t kill me. That kept creeping into my mind for about 2 weeks. So on February 16, the church were playing beautiful song, and I felt my heart pounding. Something told me to go to the altar, and I did. I don’t think I cried that hard in my life. I was just crying, praying, repenting and truly felt the presence of God. It was so, so great, and I felt at peace with myself. It feels so good to call myself a Christian now.
I got accepted into the college I wanted to go into for cybersecurity! I been waiting for a response for months, and to know I got accepted made me feel ecstatic! I can’t wait to go into the dream major I have been wanting!
I’ve learned people can truly love. Right before I was gonna make this post, I took a look at my last post and saw that 4.9 thousand people saw it. To know that many people had the nerve to even read it warmed my heart, and I was crying. So whoever bothered to look at it, reach out, comment and let me know things get better, thank you. My heart is so full.
0x00sec, you guys have become a little family for me. I am super duper grateful. I appreciate all of you. Depression is still into my system, but I am taking it day by day. I been taking my meds for it, but also praying that I can make it through another day. It’s not as bad as it used to be! I feel very positive right now.
With so much love, (and please stay safe during this chaotic time with the coronavirus!),